IVF Series: 13

I had some levels checked and it came back that my estrogen levels were too low, so they put me on another prescription also. At this point, I am feeling very tired. I know we are so close but that’s just it. We are so close. I am very nervous about my levels being okay to move on to the next steps. I just can’t get pushed back again. We are just too close. I have an appointment in a couple days where they check my levels. If they are not good enough, then I have to continue taking these meds until they are good enough….how long will that be? However, if they are good enough, then I can move on to taking other medications that will “seal” everything in place and get it ready for the transfer. This whole process has felt like it is moving slow but yet something changes everyday. Fast forward a couple days and my levels were good enough to continue! The day of the transfer arrived. It was by far the most nerve wrecking, yet the happiest day of this whole process. I woke up this morning still in shock that it was happening. As I drank my 20oz of water (bladder must be full to use as navigation) I became nervous. Right before I headed out the door, I did my usual routine with Trooper. He always stands at the door, I give him a kiss, and tell him, “I’m going to get your human ready. I will be back. I love you.” During the drive there I was starting to feel very sick but I had to just keep telling myself it was in my head. After we were taken back into the exam room, they got me comfortable with some Valium and a warm blanket. The ultrasound tech came in to make sure my bladder was full (which it was too full) so I was able to relieve some. Thank goodness because I was miserable!! Then, there was the most beautiful moment that I wasn’t expecting. They wheeled the embryo in, in a large incubator with a screen attached to it, and there it was in it’s little dish. I cried. It was the most special, beautiful moment I have ever experienced. All the pain and suffering I went through went away in that moment I saw that little embryo sitting there. I got to look at it on the screen and they told us all about it. Then my doctor came in and it was ready to begin! They put my legs in these very wide stirrups. I had said “Wow, I don’t remember the last time my legs were spread this wide.” And the ultrasound lady erupted into laughter. I realized that sounded kind of bad? She said, “That’s ok, it’s the Valium.” I said….” Oh no,....I always talk like this.” Brock was able to see the doctor guide the embryo to its new home. He said it was very cool to watch. 3…...2…..1…. And done. That was it. Now we wait 9 days for a positive pregnancy test. I really don’t think it will be that anticipated of a wait because technically I am already pregnant. There isn’t anything I have to change. I am still taking my meds and I have been on the usual pregnancy restrictions for the last couple months. It will just be a matter of coming to realize that I actually am pregnant. Like. It’s real. The moment we’ve all been waiting for…...Hopefully.

And for now,

Xoxo