What's Next: Twelve.

It’s been 12 days since I discontinued my injections and nothing has given way. It doesn’t help that we ended up getting Covid. Not the kind of "positive" test I wanted to see. We are pretty sure Brock got it from the Uber driver after dropping off the rental car the night before we flew out. I stayed back at the hotel and he tested positive 2 days before me. Brock’s Covid was intense but only lasted 5 days. Mine was intense in a different way but also only lasted 5 days. Covid is the ultimate virus. It preys upon your weaknesses, kicking you while you are down. Brock had all the congestion/nasal symptoms, while mine was all GI related; puking etc. So, basically, mine felt like when I was on vacation/pregnant. As my Covid went away, I still felt sick because I still hadn’t had my miscarriage. I am convinced my body was just crying out for help. As each agonizing day went by, I was more and more certain I no longer want to go through anything like this ever again. When I was on vacation, granted, something wasn’t right with my body, but being that sick scared me. Then, having Covid and being that sick was exhausting. And then, to still be sick after Covid because my miscarriage still hadn’t happened? I have been sick the entire month of October and I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I have completely lost myself in the process. I haven’t been able to play with Mason or take him places and really enjoy being with him. I reached out to my doctor and told her it had been 12 days since I discontinued my injections. She sent a prescription to Walgreens for me. However, when I went to go pick it up, there was some kind of issue and they needed further diagnosis. Mind you, this was at 5pm in the evening and my doctor’s office was closed. The pharmacist at Walgreens said they would call me when they could get it sorted out. I went back home devastated and just desperate to get on with this. It was 7:45pm and Walgreens was closing at 8pm and I hadn’t heard back. Out of desperation, I called them and they told me they were in fact able to get approval and I could come pick it up. So, I jumped in my car and made it just in time. I am thinking the issue was because of the new abortion laws. There have been issues with people not able to get the medications they need because of the new laws which is frustrating because when you are in that situation, your body needs to release it. The next morning, I did the medication and within 2 hours it began. It lasted all day and it was incredibly intense. I was in too much pain to rest during the day. But, then by 10pm that night, it was over. I felt relieved. Like, I could just start to live my life again.

And for now,

Xoxo