IVF Series: 14

Now that my transfer is over, I have to continue taking 4 of the meds I was previously taking. These meds are meant to continue providing the embryo with a safe environment. I will continue taking these everyday until the 8th week of pregnancy. At the 8th week of pregnancy is when the baby has a placenta that can provide for itself. But until then, in a normal pregnancy, your body naturally produces it for the baby. Because I was taking meds to shut everything off, now I need to take meds to produce that environment. If that makes sense? I have discovered so many intriguing things during this process. I feel like I am in some super advanced science class of the women’s reproductive system. It is actually quite fascinating and so in depth. I have been doing so well with balancing my emotions up until this point. As the days slowly pass, now I am starting to get nervous and scared. I wonder if I am even pregnant. What if I’m not, then it’s all my fault it couldn’t survive. What am I going to do if I’m not? How will I recover? It’s not like I can just get up and try again real quick. It would be months that I would have to wait that includes regrouping and letting my body reset, etc. Ugh...that just sounds like so much. Not to mention the emotions. Do I just take everything in the nursery and sell it? Do I just give up? If this one fails and they were so confident, why would the next one work? This is the reality. People always tell me to be positive, think positive thoughts, sending positive vibes….yup. Cool. But what if the reality isn’t positive?

And for now,

Xoxo