IVF Series: 15

And now…..the moment we’ve all been waiting for…

It’s official! I’m pregnant!! I went in for a blood draw and anxiously awaited the phone call for the results. After she told me, tears immediately ran down my face. I remember the moment Brock and I decided we wanted to start trying for a family…...that was over 4 years ago. Since then, we have done everything in the book and when that didn’t work, we went to the experts, and when that didn’t work, we went to different experts. We never gave up. There were plenty of moments of defeat, despair, and questions. There was one year that we took a break from the fertility treatments to get back our focus on life. But that hope never fully went away. Even in the darkest times, there was the tiniest of light shining. That small light continued to guide me through. With IVF, it is kind of hard to “surprise” your husband with the news. We have been in this together from the beginning so he knew that I had a blood draw. I still wanted to do something special for him so I got him some balloons, an awesome Dad shirt, and a cute Jeep onesie to go with it. Oh, and I can’t forget the hilarious M&M’s I found at the store that say “Congrats on that thing you did.” I thought that was very fitting for the occasion. My thoughts on the pregnancy announcements when it comes to IVF is that it doesn’t have to be a surprise, it just needs to be special. And it was a special moment. Even though the doctor told me I was pregnant, I was still in disbelief. Today I took an at home pregnancy test. I have seen 19 negative pregnancy tests. Only 19 because I stopped taking them each month because I couldn’t emotionally handle it. It was too painful to see that minus sign. But not today. Today it was a plus sign! Something I have never seen! Something I have never experienced. Through all of the many devastating moments. Today was just for me. Heck, I might just pee on a stick everyday!

And for now,

Xoxo