Life After IVF: 16

We decided to take a little getaway trip to the cabin. There is something about the peacefulness and serenity of the lake, trees, and overall atmosphere. We are never on a time crunch, and the cell phone reception is spotty and that’s just the way we like it. We unplug, unwind, and relax. I think you could call this a baby moon because it’s probably the last little getaway before the baby is born. It’s kind of strange to think about, that pretty soon before we know it we will have another addition to our family. Our lives will be completely changed. I have been finding myself feeling like he is supposed to be here already. It’s hard to explain, but I feel like when I get ready to go somewhere, I feel like there is something I am missing, or not packing, or not bringing, etc. This world is always crazy and 2020 was no exception. I had a realization the other day that right now is the safest I will ever be able to keep him. Once he is born, into the world, everything changes. Right now, he is safe. After he is born I am sure we will probably stay in quite a bit and adjust to our new life. With Covid still going on, there really isn’t much to do anyways and I don’t feel like I am missing out. I am still nauseous and throwing up about once a week. At least it’s better than what it has been in the past but it’s still kind of annoying. It’s crazy to think that some people don’t ever even get sick in their pregnancies yet here I am still sick at 28 weeks. With getting larger, naturally my clothes are no longer fitting. I feel like I am wearing the same stuff over and over. Well, the holes in my favorite pajamas are telling me I am wearing the same stuff over and over. I find myself going through my closet viciously tossing things into a bag to get rid of. I look at stuff in my closet and think that there is no way I am going to wear that after baby is born so mine as well just get rid of it now. I think I have like 7 garbage bags full ready to go to consignment. It has been kind of nice because it has made me look at my wardrobe differently and downsize quite a bit. I have also been going through the house selling random stuff that we are not using. We have so much stuff we don’t use so why not just get rid of it. It’s actually kind of crazy to see just exactly how much money you have tied up in “stuff.” Especially stuff that you’re not even using! When you have children, you tend to acquire quite the array of items and I already feel like my house is full of a bunch of useless stuff. Is this what they call nesting? Sometimes it just takes looking at things a little differently to open up new possibilities that stem from what we already have in front of us.

And for now,

Xoxo