Life After IVF: 2

I am finally off all of my IVF meds! Wow that seemed like a long time... I am just so glad it's over. Everyday the baby is growing. I am just so fascinated how rapidly things are moving. I am still feeling a bit nauseous but not near as bad, it’s manageable again. The throwing up has gone away at least and I am able to drink water again. I have shifted into eating smaller amounts more frequently. Brock calls me a hobbit because apparently they eat like 7 meals a day. They have Breakfast, Second Breakfast, Elevenses (11 am), Luncheon, Afternoon Tea, Dinner, and Supper (9pm). Okay, but for real, I do all of these and didn’t even know I was a hobbit! Now that I have adapted the hobbit eating lifestyle, I seem to be feeling much better. I said things have been moving rapidly and I feel like my tummy has been growing rapidly. We took a little trip to North Dakota because we haven’t been anywhere in months and man, I feel like I came back a couple sizes bigger! I know everyone shows at different stages and grows at different stages but I think I am finally starting to be okay with it. While we were in North Dakota I was having some very minor spotting. I figured it seemed minor and I would kind of just keep an eye on it. It was very hit and miss. But, then a couple days later I had a little bit more than I was comfortable with that led me to concern. I know it’s very common but no one really talks about it. I called my doctor and had an ultrasound scheduled for the next morning. They were very quiet on the phone; obviously they don’t know the situation and are not going to say anything either way. They did tell me that if worsens through the night to go to the hospital…...which was also a terrifying thought. I tried not to worry but I sort of just shut down. I didn’t want to talk about it and I didn’t want to even think about what could happen. Instead, I prayed. I cried, I prayed, and I prayed some more. Then, I took my usual sleeping pill and went to sleep. The next morning Brock drove me to the doctor but he couldn’t come inside. I hadn’t had any spotting since the night before so I was feeling better about the situation. I had an ultrasound and there the baby was. But this time…...the baby was kicking! It was kicking and moving like crazy! I could see it’s little heartbeat on the screen! The ultrasound lady was trying to get a measure on the heartbeat but baby just kept moving! She was able to get a good read on the heartbeat and the number was great! She said everything looked great! She didn’t see any spots where there would be a bleed. I was so relieved. It was so nice to see baby again even though the circumstances were less than ideal. I just couldn’t believe how much baby has grown in just a week! No wonder why I felt like my tummy popped out of no where! The doctor said that sometimes when things shift around some spotting occurs. So now, after seeing baby, I have decided to embrace my little baby bump!

And for now,

Xoxo