Life After IVF: 5

I have had a few people start nicknaming me “Mama.” It sounds so foreign to me when they say, “How’s it going Mama?” How is it going? As good as it can be I guess. I still have lingering nausea which can be inconvenient at times to say the least. I have noticed a major decrease in energy. I can hardly get anything accomplished in the day and a nap is always required. I keep trying to tell myself it’s ok but being unproductive has never really been my thing. Also, you know when people talk about pregnancy brain? I thought it was just an excuse. Nope. It’s totally a real thing. I feel so dumb...like actually dumb. It’s almost like my brain only halfway gets there. Or, not at all sometimes. I am starting to mess up at work which is probably the worst for me. Also, Brock will say something, or I think he says something and it’s not true, etc. Now, not to toot my own horn but I am basically, on a daily basis, best wife ever. For real, I am always on top of everything, I know what needs to be done, gets it done etc. But lately, oh my. I am so frustrated with my brain because I can be so absentminded. I am so frustrated because I always trust myself and now that is gone and I am left feeling confused most of the time. More of confused with the fact that I am actually wrong! Which was never the case before! I am currently reading a couple pregnancy books weekly. I have been really enjoying them because they have really put into perspective that I am not actually a crazy person. Everyday baby is growing, and everyday things are changing and frankly it’s just hard to keep up. I need to try to relax more and give myself a break but it’s hard when I am used to being so put together. I guess that’s why I write. Because it helps me realize that maybe it’s ok to not be ok. On a more positive note, I am sure many of you saw my cute Halloween costume! This picture of Pooh looking in the mirror is exactly how I feel...so here I am......in the mirror.

And for now,

Xoxo

Me in the mirror:

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